Dear God . . . . .

Oh the pressures of molding and shaping our children.  When I really think about what my job is everyday as mommy of this household it can become scary.  Each time I feel that fear welling up inside of me I just have to take a deep breath and ask God to lead and direct me in each and every thing that I do.  I am surrounded by sponges.  In the last year, Keller has become such a wise little man.  I pray nightly that God will mold and shape him into a man of God that will change this world.  I see such a fire inside of Keller.  I know that as parent's we always see great things for our children, but he is just so compassionate at such a young age.  He has such a sweet spirit.  We all start praying with our children from the time that they are born.  From the night God blessed us with Keller I prayed over him as his mother- each night as he went to sleep.  As he got older I began to pray aloud with him.  I wanted him to know what it was like to have a relationship with God.  Bobby and I started praying with him during meals and at bedtime.  I truly thought this was all I needed to do as a parent.  Just a couple of months after we started praying with him I was convicted that a prayer life for him shouldn't just be during meals and suppertime but an ongoing talk.  I wanted him to develop a TRUE RELATIONSHIP with God.  I needed him to know that no matter how big or how small his problem or his praise that God wanted to listen. I needed Keller to understand that  He is his best friend.   There are so many times that I find myself doubting my parenting.  I know it's just satan attacking me.  I know that ultimately God is in control of Keller and we are just messenger's. . . . . . . . . Last night as Keller led us in prayer he finished, turned to me and said, "God just smiled, didn't he mommy."  Thank you God for those little moments of clarity!!!!!!!